from a whisper to a scream
"In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost. And then there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait."
sorry eilania. didnt mean it.
my wound bled again @ 1:29 am
finito
i'm done living a lie.
the truth always rears its ugly head.
nothing is ever what it seems.
this blog is closed.
finito
my wound bled again @ 10:03 pm
oh, and that reminds me. jo? rain's coming to singapore on the 21st of jan. sucks to be you. =]
<3 rahrah
my wound bled again @ 10:39 pm
YESSSSS. the internets up!
went out with dad to funan the IT mall yesterday. he bought a computer. =]]]]]] yes yes i know i'm a nerd.
ANNNYWAY. i've been getting super pissed. why? WHY? the bloody new router just wont work! i'm using my old one here. the new one sucks! somehow i cant even get into blogger, or register my comp for the warranty. IT STINKS! blistering barnacles.
anyway. what have i been up to? nothing much i guess. some huge blow out fights with my brother dearest, trying to study for the SATs, getting my bloody left eye lid slit open by the eye surgeon to get all that pus and blood out, ummmmm. let me think. anymore? OH YES. getting the worst cramps i've ever gotten since last year (yes that means 2006) and sitting around wishing i was at orientation with my friends. yea, thats about it.
it stinks when everyones on holiday and youre not. it also stinks when youre on holiday and everyone else isnt. BLAH. life stinks. been watching greys anatomy recently. and wooooh! i'm telling ya, sandra oh is my new idol. eric dane is my new hottie. and IZZIE STEVENS IS MY NEW INTENDED MURDER TARGET! although i know shes a character and i cant kill a tv character I STILL HATE HER THAT STUPID ANNOYING BEEEEEETCH! so yea. =]]
anyway, i realise i havent spoken much about spain. nothing much to tell, really. there was this family with a REALLY annoying kid when i just wanted to stab and slit and physically mutilate with knives and my fists and do very bad stuff to which involves pushing his nose bone up his skull into his brain turning it to mush BECAUSE I HATE KIDS! groowwwwwwl.
so. yea. other than that were heaps of bankers and big shot people on the trip. i hung around people who wore prada burberry loewe LV dior AND EVERYTHING ELSE WHICH I CANNOT AFFORD!! (sob) and my annoying brother who gave me the hardest time of my life being SO FRICKIN embarrassing! and. annoying people as well. annoying, happy people who talk. couldnt stand them. bah.
AAANYWAY. i'm lazy i'm gonna watch greys anatomy now. LATERS CHICCCCCAS!
my wound bled again @ 10:18 pm
10 days of spain. 2 flights of 24 hours. incredibly beautiful sights. eye candy in barcelona.
what can i say?
my wound bled again @ 3:08 pm
Christina Aguilera - Welcome
welcome to the greatest show
greatest show on earth
you've never seen before
here the fairytale unfolds
what's behind the smoke and glass?
painted faces, everybody wears a mask
are you selling them your soul?
well you'll be left out in the cold
is it all blue skies
fun and games untill you fall
then you're left without anyone at all
you're riding on a shooting star
with a smile upon your face
but soon the shine fades
and you're left out all alone
wondering where did they all go?
been jaded, hated,
who'll be around when the limelight's faded?
been shut down, pushed outmade to smile when i wanted to frown
always taking a bow
always working the crowd
always breaking new ground
always playing the clown
who'll be sticking it out?
who'll be staying around
when the lights go down?
i feel so alone
my wound bled again @ 1:23 am
school report.
my school report arrived. what can i say?
i'm just so disappointed. theres nothing much i can say. i mean, i did do well for chemistry and all.. its just the math that has me so down. apparently my performance this semester is "much more varied than before", and that my confidence in the subject has suffered as a result of problems in force diagrams and careless mistakes.
i dont know i feel such an immense sense of.. i dont know what i feel. i'm pissed with my dad too, its not like i didnt try. fuck hell i'm not your bloody A+ student. i tried and thats all that i can give. it never is enough. i cant fucking get into stanford and thats it. i'll just fucking apply straight to UCLA or something. fuck.
and after high school, its college. and then work. it never fucking ends. its a cycle, over and over again. disappointment regret anger confusion.
my wound bled again @ 3:32 am
again.
stood up. again.
my wound bled again @ 7:18 pm
what i'm into
tv shows: desperate housewives, life as we know it, veronica mars, southpark, family guy
movies: pirates, cruel intentions, superman returns, fast and furious 1 and 2
books: thrillers by tess gerritsen, james patterson, patricia cornwell
food: CHOCOLATE, CHOCOLATE, CHOCOLATE. cookies, LCMs, fredos, chewing gum, flakes, HONEY SOY CHICKEN WINGS, asian food. =]] (theres heaps. the list never ends)
what i HATE
insects. creepy crawlies. i-love-my-boyfriend-so-i-have-to-make-out-and-post-our-pictures-doing-that-on-the-net, i tALk LiKe tHaT peOpLe, people who just HAVE to stare, peoplw who say theyre fat but are actually skinnyass... the list never ends.
wishlist
-new phone
-a new ipod
-an external hard drive
-a rich husband
-new earphones
-GUESS for ladies fragrance
-anna sui dolly girl goes to the beach perfume (dont want it no more!)
-anna sui secret wish fragrance
-converse black and white sneakers
-MAC gold colour pigment
-GUESS belt
-BOOBS
-2.5 inch black peeptoes
-solid black denim skinnies
-a nice bag that can match EVERYTHING.
-to go to FIGI, MALDIVES, or HAWAII
dried blood
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
roses
nicole
andrea
eilania
jiawen
vera
farah
lisa
sonja
aprine
shona
nina
rozanne
brendan
tanisha
lina mah
gardeners
blogspot
image host
image source
(sorry for uncredited
images. email me and i'll credit you)
wounds
email, msn
from a whisper to a scream
"In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost. And then there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait."
sorry eilania. didnt mean it.
my wound bled again @ 1:29 am
finito
i'm done living a lie.
the truth always rears its ugly head.
nothing is ever what it seems.
this blog is closed.
finito
my wound bled again @ 10:03 pm
oh, and that reminds me. jo? rain's coming to singapore on the 21st of jan. sucks to be you. =]
<3 rahrah
my wound bled again @ 10:39 pm
YESSSSS. the internets up!
went out with dad to funan the IT mall yesterday. he bought a computer. =]]]]]] yes yes i know i'm a nerd.
ANNNYWAY. i've been getting super pissed. why? WHY? the bloody new router just wont work! i'm using my old one here. the new one sucks! somehow i cant even get into blogger, or register my comp for the warranty. IT STINKS! blistering barnacles.
anyway. what have i been up to? nothing much i guess. some huge blow out fights with my brother dearest, trying to study for the SATs, getting my bloody left eye lid slit open by the eye surgeon to get all that pus and blood out, ummmmm. let me think. anymore? OH YES. getting the worst cramps i've ever gotten since last year (yes that means 2006) and sitting around wishing i was at orientation with my friends. yea, thats about it.
it stinks when everyones on holiday and youre not. it also stinks when youre on holiday and everyone else isnt. BLAH. life stinks. been watching greys anatomy recently. and wooooh! i'm telling ya, sandra oh is my new idol. eric dane is my new hottie. and IZZIE STEVENS IS MY NEW INTENDED MURDER TARGET! although i know shes a character and i cant kill a tv character I STILL HATE HER THAT STUPID ANNOYING BEEEEEETCH! so yea. =]]
anyway, i realise i havent spoken much about spain. nothing much to tell, really. there was this family with a REALLY annoying kid when i just wanted to stab and slit and physically mutilate with knives and my fists and do very bad stuff to which involves pushing his nose bone up his skull into his brain turning it to mush BECAUSE I HATE KIDS! groowwwwwwl.
so. yea. other than that were heaps of bankers and big shot people on the trip. i hung around people who wore prada burberry loewe LV dior AND EVERYTHING ELSE WHICH I CANNOT AFFORD!! (sob) and my annoying brother who gave me the hardest time of my life being SO FRICKIN embarrassing! and. annoying people as well. annoying, happy people who talk. couldnt stand them. bah.
AAANYWAY. i'm lazy i'm gonna watch greys anatomy now. LATERS CHICCCCCAS!
my wound bled again @ 10:18 pm
10 days of spain. 2 flights of 24 hours. incredibly beautiful sights. eye candy in barcelona.
what can i say?
my wound bled again @ 3:08 pm
Christina Aguilera - Welcome
welcome to the greatest show
greatest show on earth
you've never seen before
here the fairytale unfolds
what's behind the smoke and glass?
painted faces, everybody wears a mask
are you selling them your soul?
well you'll be left out in the cold
is it all blue skies
fun and games untill you fall
then you're left without anyone at all
you're riding on a shooting star
with a smile upon your face
but soon the shine fades
and you're left out all alone
wondering where did they all go?
been jaded, hated,
who'll be around when the limelight's faded?
been shut down, pushed outmade to smile when i wanted to frown
always taking a bow
always working the crowd
always breaking new ground
always playing the clown
who'll be sticking it out?
who'll be staying around
when the lights go down?
i feel so alone
my wound bled again @ 1:23 am
school report.
my school report arrived. what can i say?
i'm just so disappointed. theres nothing much i can say. i mean, i did do well for chemistry and all.. its just the math that has me so down. apparently my performance this semester is "much more varied than before", and that my confidence in the subject has suffered as a result of problems in force diagrams and careless mistakes.
i dont know i feel such an immense sense of.. i dont know what i feel. i'm pissed with my dad too, its not like i didnt try. fuck hell i'm not your bloody A+ student. i tried and thats all that i can give. it never is enough. i cant fucking get into stanford and thats it. i'll just fucking apply straight to UCLA or something. fuck.
and after high school, its college. and then work. it never fucking ends. its a cycle, over and over again. disappointment regret anger confusion.
my wound bled again @ 3:32 am
again.
stood up. again.
my wound bled again @ 7:18 pm